2013... it's over!

December 31, 2013
  I cannot believe this year went by as fast as it did. That could be because I kept myself busy. From spring to now, I would say I worked very hard and the hardest I ever had since being a college student.

  This whole year was rough. In the spring, my sorority chapter had a rough spring recruitment and friends were made and lost, but it was a learning process and the chapter hopefully got a step closer to being better. I know I have a few friendships I can't wait to continue. Others... oh well. It was a fun fall with the girls. Those parts I want to remember.

  Orbit Media in the spring was a blast. Muskie Daily went well, and my hard work paid off: I earned a scholarship for the fall semester and was Broadcaster of the Year. That was emotional... The fall was alright. I got some sports broadcasts and two special programs on the air. I wish I could have done more. Stupid summer complications...

  2013 is the year of the anxiety. I had to work two jobs and my internship in the city. That was enough stress to make me reach beyond the tipping point and finally face the issues of my anxiety. I was medicated for it, and it was a rough adjustment. I went through more physical changes than mental. I feel so much more aware of my anxiety and triggers. I went to counseling during the semester and found that there is a trigger for almost everything.

  I'm just happy to be alive after this year. It was very emotionally and mentally draining. I'm happy to have the support of those around me and to work on the family relationships. To put it in simplistic terms: my family life sucks. It will get better. If those on the other end won't work at it, I have to move on and just do me.

  Even though I had the realization I may not have a lot of role models through my family, I am blessed to have the role models and family support that I needed this year. I don't need to name those educators, but they know who they are. Thank you!

  2014 has a lot in store for me. I don't know what it is yet, but I know there are a lot of opportunities ahead. I had to close a few doors, like graduating from Muskingum, and now I have some to open. Bye 2013... Can't say it wasn't good, but I'm ready for so much better.