July 10, 2013
Wow. I'm sorry, to myself, for not posting in over a month. I've been very busy. I promised my friend Steph that I would keep up with this so that when she's living in Aussie she can read how I'm doing. Whether she reads or not, I keed to keep blogging.
Life has been hitting me pretty hard. June wasn't as busy as I thought. I was just starting my internship and looking for a second job since I was only scheduled at the pool for two weeks. I just had to roll with the punches, and so I got another job at a fitness center, which I'm pretty much exhaused after every shift. I'm not retaining all the information like I want to, and I keep putting myself down for it.
The past two or three weeks have been very emotional. I've been trying to balance my jobs and internship along with getting a head start on full time jobs for after the fall semester. Adulthood is going to hit pretty quick, and I'm not sure if I'm ready for it, mentally and emotionally. This is one of the many changes into adulthood that I have to tackle and embrace, all the positive and negative.
These challenges of merging into being an adult are already taking an emotional toll on me. I lost that form of relaxation and comfort that lets me handle this stress. I can't remember what calmed me down during stress. There have been too many changes over the paat years I've lost myself. This summer I've used walking as my main release. I walk to the store or library. When I have to be in the city, I walk everywhere I have to go.
I think I'm in need of more. A therapist? That might be a bit too far. I need to do what I've always wanted. I think it would be interesting to take photos of anything and everything, and write whatever I feel while looking at it. It could turn into a poem or song or even a release of an emotional rant. I need to get these feelings out in the least harmful way.
Seeing that I have work early in the morning, I shall try to sleep and remember to post again this week. A photo or poem needs to be completed by Sunday. Maybe I'll share a few photos I took at the Brett Michaels' concert.
My phrase this summer has been "stay positive", and if anyone is actually reading this and knows me in person, I'm going to be alright again... eventually.
