January 7, 2015
I'm funny, aren't I?! I feel like I've been busy since the last time I took a moment to write. There was working out more than usual, seeing old friends in town for the holidays, Christmas, New Year's, and crafting. I'm very pleased 2014 is over. It was a quick, painful year for me.
So, what are my "resolutions"? Well, I don't have any. (What?!) My best friend explained this in a very different way to me. Not word-for-word what she said, but basically, from her perspective, a new year shouldn't mean that she should make changes to her life or seek things she wants to do different. If there's something she wants to work on personally or start doing, she'll do it immediately. As soon as she gets an epiphany, action should be taken as soon as possible, not as a "New Year resolution".
In some aspects of her logic, I agree. This doesn't mean it's a bad idea to take this time of year as a chance to evaluate your life. It just shouldn't be the only time this is done. For some, this is a great way to have extra motivation to make those changes. Personally, I wanted to start getting in shape and look tone, skinnier and healthier. I decided this around Thanksgiving. I could have waited until 2015, but I needed to take action sooner, and I did. I make goals for myself throughout the year, so I guess this is a good time to see where I am at those goals versus brainstorming new ones.
I know in 2015 I want to be happier and find myself again, and I do feel better since the rough patches. 2014 just wasn't my year. Everyone knows that. I enjoyed a lot of moments, but I was very lost. I'm still lost. I'm closer to "being found", so I can smile a little bit more for that. I don't have any New Year goals or resolutions other than to continue the right changes I was trying to make last year and keep seeking new solutions to my issues that aren't quite taken care of yet.
I'm happy to be alive! I'm also happy I am checking things off my bucket list. I cut off 10 inches of hair and donated it, and I went to a NFL game. Next month, I get to knock another thing off my list: my dad and I are going to see Colin Hay! Unfortunately, it won't be in Australia, but this is good enough for me! I am too thrilled that I got tickets for the both of us, and I hope we get to meet him after the show. :)
I can't complain.
December 12, 2014
I just had a birthday. 23. Almost 25. I can't believe I'm another year older. I didn't really do much to celebrate. Do I ever? It kind of upsets me that my family has never taken birthdays seriously. For my birthday dinner, we went where I wanted to go, but I had to pay for myself AND my brother. Does that make sense? I thought I was supposed to be treated on my birthday? I always see people on social media get birthday surprise parties or big explanations about why his or her friend should have an awesome day, but I never get those. (I did get one this year. Thanks, bffl!) I don't expect them. But, I can't complain.
30 Days of Being Thankful: Days 27 through 30.
November 30, 2014
Happy Thanksgiving weekend! I tried spending little time on my phone and a lot of time to enjoy cooking, shopping, sewing, talking, and just being with my mom for my break. It was a pretty good break. I can't complain. I had to get away from the work and health news that were bringing me down. I'm sick of not being good enough and having issues I can't control. This is a short post to finish off the 30 days of November. I'm ready for this year to be over.
27. I'm thankful for my mom. She helped me forget about the work stress. We made two t-shirt quilts, cooked, watched movies, did a little bit of shopping, drank lots of coffee, and just relaxed. I don't see her much, but it was enough time to catch up and do most of what we wanted to do.
28. I'm thankful for Colin Hay. He is just simply awesome. I love his lyrics and style of music. Ever since hearing his songs on Scrubs and Garden State, I've listened to more of his work and appreciated every song. Maggie gets me choked up every time. Colin has gotten me through some rough times, and I can't wait to finally see him this coming February! I hope I can get his autograph. Who knows, maybe I'll get out tattooed! (;
29. I'm thankful for television. I've spend over two years "working" in television at school. It was a great experience and a great way to spend my time at school. I appreciate the positive aspects of television and what other inventions that have stemmed from it.
30. I'm thankful for God. Do I need to explain? Even though it's been probably the worst year of my life, I'm still thankful for all the positive events and things that have happened this year. As there weren't many, I know that God must have something better in store and needed me to go through the negative and rough times to get to the positive and better.
30 Days of Being Thankful: Day 26.
November 26, 2014
26. I'm thankful for my struggles and obstacles. It sounds weird for me to say that, but I am. Because of my recent issues, I have learned to appreciate when things do go the way as planned or even better than planned, and I am reminded of the people that I can lean on during these times.
This year has been filled with a lot of difficulties. I haven't gotten a job in my field and today was just turned down an internal position that would have been a great confidence booster and step in the right direction. My weight has fluctuated a lot this year. I've gained but lost some friends. To top it all off, my doctor today confirmed I have PCOS.
It took us three months to figure it out, but it is what it is. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm scared. I didn't do anything to cause this. There are already some physical symptoms present, hypoglycemia effects, and it's really scary. Because of all these issues, especially this recent diagnosis, I've noticed there are people around me that care. It's during times like this I can be happy and feel blessed to have support of family, old friends and even new friends and co workers.
I don't know what future struggles come my way, but I'm thankful for them since I know I have people and God to comfort me. I can learn from each situation for the future, hopefully. I get stronger after each event, even if I don't feel that growing power or the capability to use that strength yet. It will help in the long run, but I sure wish there was something more immediate to help with the pain and worry.
30 Days of Being Thankful: Day 25.
November 25, 2014
25. My closest friends. I have to be nothing less than thankful for them. I can't say much because words can't describe how much I've missed and still miss my best friends. The few high school friend that are in my life mean so much to me. I should treat them better, and I do try, but I can try harder. I hope to find more friends that I can share that kind of bond with, but nothing will take away from our experiences and what we have together.
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| Summer 2011. We were totally immature. We're adults now... |
We did yoga today then finished the night with wine, cheese and meats, and it was fantastic. Besides a few college friends, I have yet to meet friends that want to just chill like that on a weekday and talk. I wish I had more friends like that around here. I pray, quite often, that we all end up with jobs close so that I always have them near. I need them, and I hope they need me too. We'll be making a trip to get froyo before I leave for Michigan. I hate leaving them here since they won't be home again until Christmas, but two days is better than none.
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